Easy To Read...

Sometimes I get so unhappy, you know? I feel really annoyed, depressed, and kinda lackadaisical. I don't want to be bothered by anyone and I just want to be to myself. Sometimes when I pray I feel better. Other times it takes a while for me to calm down and be happy again. It's crazy how I can put up a quick front when it's necessary. But to my family, certain friends, and my boyfriend, I'm just an open book; easy to read. Smh. I hate the fact that I can be so damn emotional. Sometimes I wish I could be emotion-less or less sensitive... But I guess that's part of what makes me, me. The fact that I am so emotional allows me to pick up on the emotions of others and I can empathize with them a lot more than someone who has the emotions of a brick wall. I guess it's a part of my beauty too. It may be a pain in the ass to most, but it's a secret beauty that only a few can appreciate; the former and the latter being my mother. Lolz.

I just gotta find something that makes me happy when I get like this, or something productive that will take my mind off how I'm feeling, something like this blog. So far, writing in this blog makes me happy. The fact that someone is bothering to read what I wrote, besides a teacher, is exciting. These are my thoughts and words that someone else can relate to; a force that is connecting me to others so that when I feel certain things or have a certain opinion I'm not alone. Do you know how great of a feeling that is? If you're not a writer, maybe you don't so let me put it into perspective, the fact that someone can understand me is worth more than words can say... Anyway, it's 11:00pm, time to see if A Different World is on TVOne. Until my next post, be blessed and make sure your legacy is like no other...